I am not sure how I am feeling right now. I graduate college on Friday. My parents are coming in, and I think my mom and dad are going to be in the same room since Alex got married. That will be interesting. I don't know what will happen after the ceremony. I just know my dad will take me to a happy hour. As for my degree and such, I am not sure ( Read more... )

Okay, so there is a related entries feature here now. Interesting. I doubt someone will read a whiney post and think 'you know what else I want? More or Erin's whiney self pity ( Read more... )

Things are looking up, somewhat. One of the few fears I had about living in South Korea are starting to look better and better. I was worried about my gender identity, and I have wrapped my head over the last year around the idea of being female again. I am also reblogging a lot of black women of size. These were the women I wanted to be when I was ( Read more... )

I am pumped about South Korea again. For a while I wasn't so much, but things are looking up. Some of the things I worried about was that the country is very looks concious. Not that it isn't here, but it is more so there. I was worried that even if I dropped like 50lbs in the next year (I am not sure if that is my goal, but I am getting to that), ( Read more... )

So I was sitting and reading through Waygook.org (I am too afraid to check out Dave's ESL cafe' right now), and I am just CRINGING. True, some of it is out of my envy of not being able to go (just yet? it is still up in the air, but I will get to that), but a lot of it is just ( Read more... )

I am not sure how to feel these days. Some strange things have been happening to me recently, which is taking somewhat away from me mourning the loss of my relationship with Ash. Like somewhat major (to me) things, and I think the universe is talking, but I don't know what it is saying. I just feel like it is consoling me, telling me that I am ( Read more... )

I really do like the volunteering gig I do about once a week at the family shelter. When I got in tonight, the greeters told me that I was a favorite and that I was being asked after during the week. Tonight, as I was playing with the kids as I always do, they were pretending I was a student, a baby, and few other things. There was a part where we ( Read more... )

I am feeling more and more discouraged about South Korea. I had a bad moment where I broke down crying over whether I am a pretty girl and shit like that that I hadn't done since I was 18 or 19, before I just accepted my facial hair and learned what genderqueer meant. I didn't realize just how strict their view of women were. I don't want to fall ( Read more... )

Alright, so here is an update so far: I have had my first work out at Curves, and I feel really good about it. The main thing I think I worried about was that Curves is a women's gym and I was very adamant about not being female in any way because I hated that I failed as a woman. I have since forced myself to put that attitude away, since I will ( Read more... )

*Okay so this is a restored draft from about 3 weeks ago that I want to keep, and then I will make a new post that pertains to today ( Read more... )